DISTURBANCE

Is friendliness necessitated on how open one is to being disturbed? It has a relation to open-ness for sure. Is a friendly person one who is not disturbed easily? Or do they just perceive less reactions as a disturbance, and thus the action does not elicit a negative reaction. I found that streaming has made me type better because I am too embarrassed to keep looking at the screen. Is embarrassment a form of disturbance?

Something I’ve been doing since the quarantine is to put my headphones on for most of the day, I find that it affords both of us privacy, but perhaps to the point of overkill? Some days I notice that she is in a more relaxed mood but yet I still have my headphones on so on those days I am more actively ignoring her or portraying that I do not want to be disturbed. It is true that I prefer to not be disturbed though, but perhaps I am being selfish by only considering my own wants.

Something that relates more directly with the quote, I am usually set on my tasks, and I do not like this set sequence to be disturbed. For example, if I am planning to cook something, and she suggests something else, my inital reaction is to reject the offer and continue with my plans. But if I really wanted to help her reduce waste I would eat her food- except I don’t want to, because its old.. But regardless, being flexible with my plans is still something I am working towards.

I want to stop seeing everything as a threat.

/shiftposter